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Today, Friday 21 August, Barbara and I saw
Last Cab to Darwin at Hoyts Cinema, Broadway for my
diversion therapy:
“Rex, a
Broken Hill [taxi] cab driver,
has spent his life avoiding getting close to people.
One day, he discovers he is dying of stomach
cancer.
He doesn’t want to be forced to
rely on anyone so he decides to leave his home alone and drive 3000kms across
the continent to
Darwin,
where the recently passed euthanasia laws lead him to believe he can be in
control of his own death.
On this epic
journey he does things and meets people who force him to re-evaluate his life.”
Quote from
website < http://www.lastcab.com.au/lastcab.com.au/Synopsis.html>
I have found the last week or so difficult. This movie is an original story about someone
with more advanced cancer than mine. He
thinks he wants the right to die on his own terms. In addition to looking at euthanasia, it realistically portrays aspects of
Australian society: outback towns; working class; aborigines; and doctors,
nurses and the medical system – the main themes. While some of the language is strong, again
it is realistic and not overdone. It is
one of the best films I have seen.
I identified with Rex’s journey with cancer and wanting the
right to choose life or death when you are so sick that there is only death
ahead. At times in the last week I felt
that things were ‘terminal’ but I know this is my emotional reaction to a
period of day-after-day discomfort.
Wednesday 12 August, the stent was inserted between my left
kidney and bladder. Yes, I walked home
from hospital but, as advised by nurses, I passed some blood in my urine for
many days, especially in the morning. I
also felt discomfort in my left back area, which is due to the left
kidney. This seems to have settled down
now. I have booked my follow up
appointment with Dr Vasilaras on Wednesday 1 October. Every six months the stent will be replaced.
Meanwhile, before fully recovering from the stent insertion, I
had the first of my third round of intensive chemotherapy from Monday 17 to
Wednesday 19 August.
As usual, I was
well looked after.
Early Monday morning
I had the required blood test before treatment.
This showed the
creatinine
level in my left kidney continued to be high.
My chemo treatment only went ahead after it was cleared by Dr Mahon, my
oncologist.
In the overall situation the
most vital thing is having chemotherapy for it attacks the cancer that is growing
again in the liver.
Hence, I was very
relieved when they told me the treatment would go ahead.
I had forgotten how this intensive chemo affects me: increased
tiredness and nausea are two of the main things. Late Wednesday afternoon I was able to
participate in a Skype call with Canaan School to discuss building matters at
their new primary campus site. However, Wednesday
night when our daughter came for dinner, I hardly said a word because I felt so
blah. Yesterday, Thursday, our
daughter-in-law and two children were here – at least I said more during this
visit. I am glad that I am feeling more
normal today and am able to write this blog update.
Later Thursday afternoon I saw my General Practitioner (GP) to
begin the investigation of my heart.
This arises from the ECG test taken ten days ago in the pre-admission
procedures before the stent operation.
The ECG taken at the GPs showed the same issue in the function of part
of the nerves in the heart. Now, I have
an appointment with a cardiac specialist at 4.30 pm this coming Monday
afternoon. My hope is that my heart will
not be an issue.
While I have been feeling sorry for myself over the last week
or so I have deliberately thought about several of you my friends who read this
blog. Some of you have had chronic
health issues for years, even decades.
Some of you experience pain that requires regular medication. My cancer was diagnosed just over four years
ago and I have only occasionally experienced mild pain. I have been grappling in my mind to keep
things in a reasonable perspective. This
is so much easier today because I feel much better and enjoyed an informative,
challenging, excellent Australian movie – Last
Cab to Darwin! A bonus is that Barbara and I have visited most of the places
featured in the movie.